This is going to be a quick entry, I have 10mins more to the end of invilgilating for this paper.
During the PH monday, I took a nap ard 12nn till about 2pm while waiting for my housemate n pal to come over for a cookout session. Although I was tired and felt sleepy, that night I found myself tossing and turning... till 2am... When I finally 'gave up' I went to pee ard 230am and tried falling asleep again. I switched on the aircon, I snuggled up my comforter, I fluffed up my pillow and I laid down... 3am I was still tossing and I went to pee again... I couldn't remember how but I eventually fell asleep and seconds (it felt like seconds) later I was awoken by the morning light. 720am, I checked... when my alarms were set to 6.30am...
Tuesday night, I was totally exhausted from previous sleepless night, and thought I would konk out immediately. Unfortunately, history repeated itself... Tossing, turning, adjusting the aircon temperature, watching drama to get myself to sleep. I last checked my hp at 3am and got so frustrated and TIRED I prayed and asked God to let me go to sleep now so I could function properly the next day. Which I did... But waking at 630am is such a chore when u sleep at 3am...
I was kinda worried abt my sleepless-ness, never had I felt so afraid to 'go to bed' for fear of not being able to sleep again...
I pondered and wondered why so... 1st night was probably due to the nap but 2nd night my body had no reason not to shut down...
It dawned upon me that it could be due to stress... Where is the stress from, I asked? When I did up a mental list did I realised I was indeed stressed up and unaware of it.
Things to do by this weekend:
1) Set Maths Paper 2 for O level (30 Aug)
2) Set POA Paper 1 and 2 (30 Aug)
3) SOW for P-class (2 months course) (30 Aug)
4) Appreciation gifts (26 Aug)
5) Appreciation cards/letters (26 Aug)
6) Prepare for cell (24 Aug)
7) Organising Chill Out Chalet for NYP (ongoing)
8) Mark exam papers
9) Get the PT maid to come (25 Aug)
10) Planning for OCO and BOTC (15 Sep)
11) Anchoring Prayer tower (14 Sep)
12) TCS Staff Advance (5-8 Sep)
13) WOW Chase helpers list (Just done)
14) Attending COC for both SP and NYP (30 aug - 1 Sep, 3 Sep - 4Sep)
Basically I am stressed up over having little/no time to complete the above before 13 Sept.
After the realisation of the 'cause' of sleeplessness, I decided NOT TO be stressed... And also got 2 cell sisters to pray for me during g12.
Thankfully, last night I last checked my hp ard 1230pm and managed to sleep w/o much difficulty. Deciding to have a relaxed mind helped tremedously!!
I am now troubled over the scars/wounds on my face... My complexion deteriorated suddenly and it was not even my PMS periods. I then discover my sleepless nights has caused my itchy fingers to peel at the scabs...
I took the below pics with the webcam while invilgilating... Depressed just looking at them...
3 big dents at the side of my eyes, countless holes on my forehead. Not gotta touch my face for the next 2 days and hope it will heal fast enough b4 Kenny comes back from Mongolia.
Meanwhile, I shall hide under my bangs...
Got hold of photos from Sentosa Trip and will be logging them soon...