I haven't felt so bz for a long time... And I realised I keep saying things like, I have nv felt so bz before. I guess either every year I out-did myself or I am just plain exaggerated

Wed's observation came and go. I didn't have time to prepare becos I went for Momentum Conf. Although I was very tired, I managed to pick up a few points from Ps Lance. I was really not prepared, but thankful for the attentive (but late haiz) students I was able to engage the class and test some understanding. When i go through a lesson like that, I really really enjoy myself teaching! Now, we need to start writing lesson plans, at least once a week to build up our lesson resources. Depending on whether we want to get certified by CPE, we would need to submit our curriculum for checkins.

This weekend is another LONG WEEKEND! Am glad to be going Batam with the YN leaders. I remember when I was there the last time, I went for a massage which cost $80 (very expensive but totally comfortable). I wonder if there will be any free slots for me to do it again this year. I'm kinda in a dilemma, caught between "I really need a massage" vs "shouldn't spend so much money". Its like, got money but cannot spend. Why, you would think? Basically saving for rainy days ba. Saving for future uses like children, my sis' purchase of flat and renovation what nots. Dilemma dilemma dilemma!!

Following weekend would be burnt also at SP.POC... Kinda excited for this whole cycle of recruitment, NDP and building relationships. I just hope I wld keep up the excitement and don't always pangchek (punctured) in the middle when my physical capacity cannot keep up. Manpower still very tight for NDP. MUST KEEP UP!

Had a great time with the Booth committee on tue night, whether Kang and I got appreciated! I mean, WOW!! I was officer/advisor for the past 3 years in various committees and no one has EVER appreciated the head or the officer in charge! Was really touched and abit paiseh bcos I nv prepare anything... Since its not common to have committee appreciations. BUT REALLY THANKS ALOT TO ALL THE SWEETIES!!!


Booth committee at the last day of their booth!


After our dinner at Just Acia


Yes, Kang and I feel so appreciated!!! =) SUCH A BIG BOARD!

My colleague's son is going to Paris end May and she is contemplating getting a LongChamp for herself. She asks me if I want another one. I OF COURSE WANT! But cannot anyhow spend (see above for reason)! Should I get it?!

I was supposed to have lesson observation (boss observing me teaching) so I spent the whole weekend preparing for it. Spent all my free moments on Saturday and Sunday just editing the slides, making the theory easy to understand, creating new slides of triangles.

The period for observation is just over. Unfortunately, my boss could not observe my lesson because she has to deal with some disciplinary issues. The next time she can observe my lesson would be wed for Maths and Accounting. NOW I have to start preparing the lesson ALL OVER again because today my lessons for the N class and wed for the O class are 2 different topics!

To think Kenny actually suan-ed me last night that I am 'cheating' because my painstakingly prepared lesson is not the 'real' standard of my normal lessons. Now I have to go through the whole process to create the same standard for my 'lesson observation'.

OK, sad things aside... My colleague finally received her bill for my LongChamp purchase. And it cost a grand total of $125 only! To think this would cost $220 approx in local shops, i can't believed I just saved $100 plus minus. Kenny also likes this bag very much so this is a awesome purchase.

Now I shall go back to preparing for my Wed's observation. Gambatte!!!

Random gifts from church bro - Sharky Yong...


Makan with Mentoring Group...


I dig appreciation!


Pressie from Colleague - really want to try these London Tea...


My 1st and most likely last LongChamp...

This week has been great so far. Tho workload did not decrease but I really enjoy my lessons! Was tasked to teach my students balloon sculpturing. I worked over the weekend on the slides and the instructions so that they can pick it up. Although preparing was tedious, I am pleasantly surprised. I really enjoy TEACHING! (anything in particular!)

We have our 1st cell outing of 2012 on Feb 18...

Cycling and blading at ECP! I was wondering where is Kenny, then I realised he should be the one behind the camera!

From the bike rental place, we cycled (I bladed) all the way to Bedok Jetty. It was pretty challenging and unstable at 1st. The cyclists had to slow down for me. Eventually, I got the hang of it and could quite comfortably cruise behind them... I know many of them were riding slowly to accommodate me.
Here we are at bedok jetty! Don't you just love the blue skies!!


Then we went all the way back to the rental shop... And got drinks cos we were all so thirsty and hot by then. Wensze and I swapped over as she wanted to try blading a bit. We then went to the Jetty near the Yellow Tower. Shans took some beautiful pics using some app? We were all tired so didn't take anymore pics.
END OF CELL OUTING!

Next up is Kenny's 3Xth birthday! Since his birthday falls on a Sat, he expects us to celebrate it so he was asking us on the cell whatsapp group chat what we are doing for his birthday. Talk abt being obvious... Since there is no way to hide from him about any plans for celebration, we decided to use groupons vouchers and go for Laksa Steamboat along Upp Serangoon Road for bday lunch! Vimel and Kang cannot join us for lunch so we took a cell photos at our lift lobby...

Well, this is the only thing he knows about. Behind his back, the cell started discussing about his bday pressie and surprises. Thanks to Derrick, we got him a nice Hush Puppies shoes with the intention of replacing his very cui crocs from 3years ago? I also asked the other SP cells (Yaohan's and Mings) members to join us for the lunch if they can. So when we reached the restaurant, kenny saw the ambush party. Thanks for making it! Yaohan, Wilfred, Wengchiun, Vivian, Qimin, Benjamin and Weixiang! And for getting the Yummilicious Mango ICECREAM CAKE!

Happie birthday to my dearest HUBBY! We love you very much! =)

Had the 1st gathering of 2012 with my AJC Council mates. The gathering was prompted by Jijo who came back from London to visit... Thanks to the new year PH, we met on 2 Jan for a pot luck.

Xiangyao offered to buy Yusheng, I think thats my 1st Yusheng for the season. This is the result of our attempts to increase prosperity... We also recorded a video which involves us being too violent and causing ATM's eldest boy to drop his chopsticks. Shall not embarrass myself with the video...

  

During the makan, we entertained ourselves catching up, looking at old photos and taking care of the 3 kiddos (ATM's)... From my observation, I think WW (in yellow)loves children...




ATM's eldest kiddo (Nathan)

We had a photo taken in 2000 (2nd photo top left) at a BBQ in Sembawang and seeing we had high attendance, we decided to imitate the 12 year old photo. Am glad we have more now!!





Wensze and Weixiang's 21st @ Marche

We celebrate Wenxiang, Wensze and supposedly Maggie's 21st but ended up Maggie couldn't becos she has to rush her FYP.

Dinner was at Marche and followed by Ben and Jerrys. Was toooooo full so just pinched a bit from the girls and boys.


The guys


And the girls!


Happie Birthday Weixiang and Wensze! May you continue to bask in the Lord's faithfulness over your lives and grow in intimacy with our Lover God!

Woke up 5am on 18 Dec to make my way to HabourFront ferry terminal. On top of our own luggages, we (SP cluster) were required to transport musical instruments to be donate to the churches over there. I slept ard 2am the previous night handling the logistical part and partially due to anxiety that I will oversleep.

We managed to transport all the musical instruments properly to HabourFront and checked in the items. We can relax abit for now! On the ferry!

   

Thankfully, Laysuan who has seasick-ness problem did not feel uncomfortable at all! We took a bus at Habour Bay Ferry terminal to this place where we were told to get off and walk to the church. It was a pretty steep but thankfully short walk to the top of the path, a church. We were early so we got the pastor to share his testimony.

   

In the below bigger picture was the pastor in blue sharing, orange lady was the translator, but she said she is pre-believer so she will try her best to translate. Pastor did not share very much but as he was sharing he was overwhelmed with emotions from the difficulties and persecution from being a muslim-convert-to christian. As he was sharing, i was v touched by it though, like i said, he didn't share much...

In the end, Ps Mel felt prompted to pray for him. When we asked him what is his prayer request, he said that he hope the Lord will continue to use him until he dies. I am very amazed and deeply humbled by this man. His church building was semi-completed (check my fb for photos) and he probably have a lot of needs for himself, his family and ministry. And yet his ONLY request is that the Lord continue to use him. I teared uncontrollably, and I ask God to show me the purpose for this church visit.

We had worship even though we don't understand Bahasa. Surprisingly, I was moved to tears again. It is simply awesome for God's people to gather together and worship HIS NAME despite using different language. Our God is the same in Indonesia as in Singapore! Our God is a big and mighty God, worthy of all praises and worship!



On the 2nd day, at the breakfast table...
   

At the plantation in the afternoon. Ended early and went to Giant/Carrefour to buy icecream! Thank God for YH who bought me Magnum icecream! It was AWESOME!
   

At night, we celebrated Ps Julie's bday and have a wonderful closing session.


Day 3 weather was slightly better and it was grey clouds, meaning no sun! We had a stick to pierce into the ground for a 5cm depression, place the pink/purple corn seed in and cover with soil. We finished out work so fast so we moved onto to ploughing the land full of weeds and when that was finished, went on to planting kangkong!
   

   

Plantation was not as tough or as boring as I imagined. We were grateful that we ended our service early and had time to rush back to hotel for a quick shower and went to Nagoya hills for shopping. For the non-shopaholic me, i only ate A&W curly fries and waffles with Icecream. Bough a half-a-dozen of J.Co for breakfast and that concluded the trip.

Gave up writing resolutions 2-3 years ago after seeing how I couldn't keep them at all and making no difference writing or not. And it takes hell lots of effort to come up with [#insert magic number] of resolutions when u have nothing you want to do/change or no intention to make it happen in the next year.

This year end [entry drafted in dec 2011], I decided I must write something because in the last 2 weeks I have some thoughts floating around in my mind. I am sick and tired of just letting time past. Make your life count, the theme of 5157 camp did strike a chord in my heart.

Thanksgiving for 2011
1) Pleasant relationship w Kenny's family during my stay in their home.
Thank God for my mom-in-law for making bf and lunches for me, on a daily basis. I am really close to 白白胖胖！

2) Providence of my house and everything in it [READ IT HERE]

3) Health for 2011
Had about 2 accounts of vertigo and nothing else.Providence to do Lasik after years of contemplation and 'saving'. Good healing for Lasik, no infection, good followup with doctor. Good rest and close to perfect vision. Right eye left w 50deg myopia and 75deg astig for both eyes. Can go down further with constant lubrication. Still praying!

4) Good results for N level class
I have 70% passes for Maths and 60% for POA. For the past 2 years, its about 40-50% in maths and 10-20% in POA. They also managed to score mainly 3s and 4s (60-70%), compared to 5s (50-60%) in the past. I am extremely proud of them, and of myself! =)

5) Growth in the ministry!
Yaohan and Kenny's cell multiplied end 2010. In 2011, Shan and Wens started their open cell and managed to reach out to many pre-believers. Yaohan and Liangming's cell also collaborated and started another cell in SP! Its a fruitful year!!

6) 5157 Camp
My first 'mission trip' after 5 years. Had been on 2 trips to Cambodia and 1 trip to Sri Lanka for 3 consecutive years (2004-2006) Tried going China for QQS in 07 but the trip was cancelled due to Sichuan Earthquake. 2008 I joined YLC and my work schedule no longer allowed me to go for OSLT with primers. Although the Batam Trip was just a short 3 days, that opened my eyes and melted my heart for the Lord to use and speak again. More of that in another entry.

7) Relationship with my dad
Dad and Mom divorced, sold their house in the last one year. I was pretty 'uninvolved' trying to transit into my newly married life. Mom and Bro bought a new place at HG (Thank God for providing!) and Dad went to stay with my 3rd aunt, who was the one who helped my dad find a divorce lawyer. It was absolutely difficult to forgive this aunt and my dad for what they had done to my heart. They probably won't know but it was deep pain. 2011 saw the Lord challenging me through encounters and services in the area of forgiveness. I don't think I have fully attained it so I will not talk abt it. Aunt now wants my dad to shift out of her place. After many months, he finally agreed in dec to shift out of my auntie's place and stay in rental. Now I just pray that I can find an affordable one for him.

8) Enjoyable and magnificant Krabi trip 
Kenny is not a person who love to travel, he actually dislike it despite his job needing him to travel with Pastors. I, on the other hand, love a good holiday and needs an annual trip minimally. As I planned for this trip, there were a few hiccups here and there, Kenny mostly uninvolved. Thank God the trip came to past, we had a good time spent together. He actually enjoyed Krabi more than Korea. All the efforts worth it! And not forgetting savings here and there!

9) Changes to YLC
In Oct, CPE called us and informed us that we needed to register as a Private School, otherwise we cannot provide full-time preparatory courses anymore. This caused big instability and resulted in many changes to the school that I am teaching in. Can consider 'storms' in my somewhat peaceful life. I still thank God for leading me to work here despite having thoughts of changing jobs/upgrading on and off.

10) Students anchored in Christ
In 2011, I have seen 3 students having their lives anchored in cell and service. Of course, I have little to do with their commitment but it does bring my great joy to share. I see GQ, WK and ZK at service on a weekly basis. On new year's eve, I also brought my 2011 student SY to service. He was my top student and is apply to return to govt school. He was rejected for the 1st time and applied for a 2nd school which has no vacancy. I managed to pray for him on NYE and he got accepted! Now he has frens in his new school, bringing him to service in FCBC! Hope he will join a cell too!

11) Last but not least, an Awakening so close to year end! I thank God for the EXD Series of messages!

My plans for 2012:
1) Be a better teacher. Make a significant impact to the transformation of my current students' life.
2) Be a better helpmate to Kenny and the ministry
3) Be a better leader to the gers, focused on discipleship.
4) Start an open cell
5) Have a regular devotion life, more discipline!
6) Obey God
7) Take better care of my health, my physical fitness, my skin condition
8) Get a driving license (Half-hearted on this one)
9) Be more involved and connected with my family, including my dad.
10) Save more!
11) Make a baby!
12) Raise up more in my department!

God is awesome and always good! Thank God for 2011! And I don't think the world is going to end yet. So thank God in advance for 2012! My single prayer for 2012, is that Jesus is the centre of it all, my life, my family, my church... I pray that I will never walk out of will of God!

Thank You Jesus for you 3-Fold grace! =)

Just received an email from the coordinator in Batam.

The farmer told him the sweet corn we planted are now grown 50% and he will be visiting the plantation next week and will provide photos. Kinda excited because its the first time I had done any farmer. And I wonder how 50% grown corn look like. Hope all the land that we have ploughed, planted or sown will reap lotsa lotsa fruits!!

Photos and entry of 5157 to follow!

Went to see Dr See on Friday as my right eye was experiencing poor vision and discomfort.

Somehow seeing the doc just make it better, I think its a psychology effect. The good news is, there is nothing wrong with my eyes except dryness in my right eye which she calls them dry spots. There were also dry spots on my left just that they are at the lower part of my eye so doesn't affect my vision and they are much smaller.

The dry spots in my right eye went from the lower part (review 2) to the middle of my cornea where we call iris... Resulting in the poorer vision. Dr See then said what I was doing to lubricate my eyes is not enough, so she prescribe another anti-inflamatory eyedrop that is very expensive and told me to take fish oil.. I asked abt the fish/fish oil thing and she recommended the NEU TEARs supplements that her clinic carries.

Long story short, I spent $200++ for the new eyedrop n the oral supplement. That night, After using the new drops and taking the supplement, i felt immediately better. Like my  right eye went back to almost perfect vision. Its very kua zhang I know, but I think it is the psychology effect more than the 2 new prescription. Thank God anyway to perfect vision.

Gonna go for Post-Op review 4 next week and I guess that would be case close for me, although post-op care will carry on to up to 3months.

Not looking forward to start of school tmr...

But I am thankful for the good results of my N class. *Proud of you*

Now as I am writing this entry, I don't feel perfectly good about my eyes.

After I came back from Batam, my vision has not been as sharp as before I went. Especially my right eye's vision has dropped alot. It seemed like more than 100 deg, which was the worse case senario that the doc informed before she proceeds to do the surgery for me. Although I thought I have prepared myself for it, after more than a week of close to perfect vision, this dip kinda discouraged me a little.

I think it might be the unclean/rusty water in Batam hotel, or that I have not managed to instill the gel/eye drops regular enough. I suspect the former is more likely and I wonder what is with my eye now... I feel like there is a grain of sand constantly under my eye lid.

After contemplating for a day, I just booked an appointment to see Dr See. I don't know what to pray.... I hope there is no complications, no infection... but I don't know what explains the cloudy vision and 'sand grain' in the eye feeling. Should I still have the wishful thinking of regaining perfect vision?

Dear God, I place my trust in You. I pray that my heart will choose to trust and rejoice in whatever outcome and to lean closely to You. I know I can't do it myself, as I am grouchy and whiny, help me to be grateful and thankful in this season and remember the ultimate gift, that is Jesus, that is in my life.

让我记得,这一生最美的祝福...
            

在无数的黑夜里              

我用星星画出你

你的恩典如晨星星      让我真实的  见到你

             

在我的歌声里           

我用音符赞美你  

你的美好是我今生颂扬的

                 

这一生最美的祝福                

就是能认识主耶稣                                                         

这一生最美的祝福        

就是能信靠主耶稣

走在高山深谷         他会伴我同行                      

我知道这是最美的祝福